I was talking to my cousin the other day, who struggles with her weight. She always feels like people are staring at her, and she has thus become very self-conscious. She thinks that I don't know what it's like because I'm "so skinny" but what she doesn't understand that it's not what you look like, it's how you feel. I feel the same way she does. In my head there's no such thing as properly fitting jeans, and like all the other women on this website I believe myself to be the fattest person on the face of the planet. I can't honestly say that I've tried so many things out there, because STARTING doesn't exactly count as effort. I am looking to become a dance major in school, and I know I have to be in shape to do it. I also want to be attractive to my boyfriend. But most importantly I want to look in the mirror, and find a healthy glow instead of a flaw...