work, holiday prep, kids and all that...can't really blame anyone but myself for not taking care of myself. havent really done anything to keep on track. went shopping last night and i am comfortable in size 20 pants, 22 shirts and sweaters..this sucks...i need motivation and inspiration and hope. I love my hubby but he likes me heavier i think. I have gained 30 lbs in the 4 years we have been together. i was 210-215 when i met him, not skinny but felt good about myself. i hate how i look and feel..iknow boo hoo me, just bitchin.
ok, i feel sucky, i look sucky and i am sucky, if i want to change, the only way i will do that, is if i do it...no one else is to blame just me and my willpower or lack thereof. i took photos of myself so hopefully that will keep me on track. maybe i will post one on here and everyone can make mean comments to keep me motivated..lol.
here i go again.
