What the world brings us, some of us may never know. I'm trying to get my life back after some really bad things have happened in my life. as a child I was adopted by my grandfather and step grandma and life wasn't always good but I can deal with that. I was an overweight child and teenager and I really don't remember much about growing up.
I moved when I was 18 hoping to start a great life. I married at 19 and 3 months later I found out I was going to have a baby! the joy that brought me. Then 6 months after my first I had Jessica my first baby girl then 7 months after her I had kayla and 6 months after her I had kyle. Life was full of loving kids.
Then one day my world changed in one heartbeat I found out my oldest son Zack who was going to be 8 in a few days had acute lympholic lukemia oh I can't spell LOL. I didn't know if he was going to live or die and I thought my world was over. Well it wasnt 50 pounds later and 3 years my son has been in remission for 3 years. But the really sad thing happened on 2-22-2008 My husband was hit head on in a car accident (which truly was an accident) the lady went left of center and hit the van that had my 2 girls and my husband in it. a few hours later I felt my heart fall out of my chest and my world crumble in front of me. I have never been the same and some days I'm shocked I evan get up! But that night I lost my 12 year old daughter jessica in that very accident! Oh my im crying again. but the thing is I have 3 other children that need me and I need to put my life back together somehow. Im tired all the time and I just hate the way I feel. Help me put myself back together!!
