KoonYah

This is the first time I have made it this many consecutive days on any type of eating plan.  Iusually cannot make a day, but if I do, then I celebrate and fall off the wagon.  I am scared to get too excited.  If I do, then I disappoint myself.  I have spent the last decade hoping to been smaller by summer and now I almost don't dare to think about it.

I think I need to just keep myself focused on NOW and not look way down the road.  With this opportunity to journal about why I over eat, I am looking at the self loathing and comfort eating I do. 

I will say that I have been physically starving for the last 6 days, but I am trying to find the right kind of foods to eat.  I also am taking my Prilosec, because I see that I confuse the acid feeling of my upset stomach with hunger.  That has helped.

Tangerines have been a nice addition to my diet.  They are easy to peal, very sweet and refreshing.  And so what if I eat three...

I love the starches, the breads, potatoes, pastas and of course the fats that go with them. 

I have learned that if I just make the decision of what to eat before I get there, then after the meal, I don't look back and think, gee, I wished I had eaten __________.  Instead, I am done with that meal and on to the next activity.  It is just that moment of indecision when ordering or deciding what to eat...if I can get through that, then I am okay.

And, when I get home, I have started knitting instead of having the after dinner graham crackers...

Again, it is only 6 days, but I am hopeful and prayerful that I can continue for this day.