Day One
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 at 10:33 AM filed under Weight Loss postings
Well, here I am again. Day one of trying to overcome my ongoing battle with food and my weight. My weight is going up and I am desperate to get it to come off. I lose weight and it comes back. I'm to the point that I HATE food because of what it has made me. I love to eat it, I love the taste of food. It's the one thing in life that I really enjoy and that is why I hate it so much. I don't understand why it is that I love food so much. I have to stop though or I am going to end up killing myself by being so unhealthy. I weigh 280 pounds. Just three years ago I was down to 220 and I blew it and gained everything back. I feel tired all of the time and I have no energy. My body aches and I know it is because of the weight. I get up off the couch or from sitting down and I hobble like a little old lady because my feet hurt and that's probably because they can't handle my weight and they're tired. I HATE dieting. I miss out on the foods that I love so much and that's probably why I end up failing. I'm hoping and praying that this time is different. I want to be able to overcome my addiction to food and be able to enjoy my life and for once feel good about me. I don't want to be super skinny or anything like that. I just want to have energy again and not have aches and pains anymore. That's all I want.....just to be healthy.
