Beating yourself up hurts no one but yourself
Wednesday, April 14, 2010 at 9:52 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I have a bad habit of going down that path of self destruction. I've discovered this enough about myself in the countless number of times I have tried to lose weight in the past. I have a set back, a bad night of overindulgence, and I end up spiraling out of control. Anyone else know what I'm talking about? Tonight I took a co-worker out to dinner to thank her for watching my kids for about an hour. We ate about 2 hours later than I normally do, which caused me to start down that path of rationalizing it's ok to order things that I shouldn't be ordering.
I noticed one huge difference tonight, though. I didn't eat everything on my plate. I knew when I'd had enough, boxed it up and took it home. I shared my appetizer with my daughter, so I only had 2 crab rangoons instead of my usual 4. And I was accountable and logged in what I ate, even though I was scared to see the damage. Surprisingly enough, I had nothing to fear. Surprisingly enough, I didn't do as badly as I thought (or had prepared myself to see).
Not to say that it was ok to order crab rangoon and pad thai for dinner, but I didn't punish myself tonight like I normally would have. I didn't go down that path. After all, I'm human. And if this is going to be a lifestyle change, I have to live with the decisions I made, even if they're not always the right ones.
