Day 1 at FitClick
Monday, June 7, 2010 at 12:42 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I just found FitClick earlier today and, after taking a good look around, I have to say that I really like it. I've been struggling with my weight all of my adult life and I'm tired of it! I turned 30 a little more than a month ago and something inside me changed. I was somewhat depressed for 2 weeks before my birthday but it turned out to be a good thing.
During my slight depression, I thought about where I was in relation to where I wanted to be; sort of a life review. I finally realized that the only thing holding me back from being where I wanted to be was me. Since then, I've been trying harder to watch what I eat and I've been getting outside more. I've also reconnected with some people with whom I had lost contact.
All in all, things are working out fairly well....so far. This past weekend was very difficult for me. My sister came over, who is a size 0, to go swimming. I found myself watching my husband who, in my eyes, kept watching my sister. I actually cried because, to me, that's what my husband wants and I'm not that person. My husband says he loves me just the way I am but it's very difficult for me to believe that.
I'm not going to lose weight for my husband, my sister, or anyone else. I'm on this journey for one person....ME. I want to be happier with who I am. I have overcome so much in my life and this, for me, is the last thing to overcome. I have good relationships with the people in my life, I just got my degree in business, my job is wonderful, my husband and kids are the greatest. Losing weight is only going to enhance all of that. I want to be happier with me.
I've found myself actually looking forward to starting my days now. Before, it would be like pulling teeth to get me up in the mornings. Now, I'm awake before the alarms go off (yes, I have 2 alarms) and I'm ready to get moving. I've started working out a little by way of kickboxing bootcamp for 10 minutes. I know 10 minutes isn't a lot but something is better than nothing. I've also been swimming almost every day and I'm doing little things around the house.
I want to be active! I have a feeling that once I start seeing results, I'm going to want to be more active. The kids are out of school for the summer starting next week and I'm going to take a day this weekend to create a plan for us. They've already said they're going to help me workout and keep me busy.
I'm really looking forward to the new me. I'm becoming the person I've always wanted to be.