Here I Go Again! Another Diet!

I don't know how many times I have started and failed diets.  I lost track a LONG time ago.  I never really considered myself obese (oh, how I HATE that word) until just lately.  The scales don't lie.  I tried to start a diet last summer and was doing a pretty good job with it until my brother died of cancer at age 50.  Less than two weeks later, my mother that raised me died.  All thoughts of a diet when out the door during this time.  I just couldn't think about food, let alone a proper diet.  Depression entered my world for several months.  Another death, my birth mother, didn't help me.  I decided to give up the diet for awhile.  Now almost a year later, I'm right back where I was a year ago.  The weight I had managed to lose has reappeared.  Urg!

I need someone to push me, keep me on track, and can't find that in my family or friends.  Maybe someone on FitClick can help me find the discipline I need to do this.  My problem is carbs and sugars.  I love baked goods, fried foods, sweets - all those really bad things.  It is just so much easier to get your hands on these things and fast foods!  My kids are all grown now so I don't have to make nutritious meals for them, plus we have the money to eat out more often.  The husband is no help either.  He is a meat and potato, or hamburger, man!  Vegetables?  Fruits?  You would think he was superman and they are kryptonite!  Ultimately, it is my responsibility, though.  I have to take the responsibility but it would be nice to have someone cheering me on and convincing me to stick to this important part of my life. 

Today is day one and it hasn't gone very well.  Marty, the husband, wanted to go to Waffle House for breakfast.  I got the breakfast sandwich, no hash browns, half of his waffle, and a glass of water.  Over 700 caloroies!  And the egg upset my stomach!  I think I must be allergic to eggs.  I have this problem a lot when I eat them.  Pepto Bismol to the rescue!  Now my stomach feels awful and I don't think I'll want to eat anything else all day! 

I hope day 2 goes better.  At least I won't have the hubby's input for most of my meals.  I plan to be nice to my tummy tomorrow!