On MY Way To Todd

My name is Kimberly and I am about to be 40 in September. January 11, 2010, five co-workers and myself started a biggest loser contest. Everyone put in $20 in the pot. The money was to be given to the biggest loser of every month for three months. At that time I weighed in at 286lbs. As I type those numbers I am welling up with tears. I can just remember the embarrassment that I felt when stepping on the scale, seeing that I weighed that much shocked me. But, not really I guess, I knew that I had let myself go. Anyway, I also happened to be the largest woman at work and I had a little something to prove. I am not saying that I started Atkins, but I started off counting and watching my carb intake. The first week I lost 10lbs. And I won the contest for the first month. But not the second or the third.  I have a way of sabotaging myself when I got close to my target goal for the month, I would mess up (over eat all weekend long) and take a huge step backwards. I didn't give up though. And today I am proud to say that I have lost 70lbs and I feel incredible. Four of the ladies that started this venture with me, bailed. Now there is only two of us. Now we are in it because we both want to reach our goals. I guess you can say that we want to finish this for us. My goal at first was to loose 50lbs. But then I remembered that football season was coming (slowly but it was coming) and that it would be great to loose 86lbs, cause that is the number that my favorite football player wears. So, today, I'm shooting for 86lbs by my birthday, Sept. the 9th. This wonderful number belongs to the fabulous Todd Heap of the Baltimore Ravens. If you don't know ya better find out. This man is the truth! So, I have 17lbs to go to reach my goal. I know I will not make it, but I think I will be close. Though to be healthy I need to get down to 155lbs. This means that I have 44lbs left to lose. Now I am freaked out. My weight loss is starting to slow down and I am losing my motivation faster than before. Need help to get it off.