Halfway There
Saturday, October 16, 2010 at 9:25 AM filed under General postings
Well I'm finally at my half-way point, but with only 6 weeks until my deadline, I'm worried I won't finish. I try to keep the deadline out of my head and focus on what's really important, but I so desperately want to reach my goal. I've been trying so hard to buckle down and just eat a low calorie diet everyday. My stomach somehow always has something to say about that at the end of the night and ends up tricking me into a handful of sour cherry chews or a granola bar or the worst yet, hot chocolate! I need to just find a way to deal with my cravings at night like I do during the day. I know I've come a long way from what I was a year ago; eating horrible, gaining weight every month. I just didn't think it would take a whole year to get where I am now and even longer to reach my goal. I joked at the start of this journey that I had two goals, my doctor's goal for me, then my un-abtainable goal. Now I think I have a fighting chance to make it past those last 15 pounds.
I know I'm not the only one that struggles with cravings and plateaus, but it sure does feel like it when no one around me understands. At home I ask my husband to work out with me, because I'm getting lonely, all he says is, "Maybe later", which I know will turn into tomorrow, so I end up going alone. At work everyone eats fast-food and would sit around in the office the entire day if they could get away with it. They don't get why I have to eat better, why I need to walk around 80% of the time. I just wish I had someone here with me to talk to, share my frustrations, and to help figure out what the key problems in my journey are.
To always end on a plus, I lost 2 pounds a week the past 2 weeks and finally hurdled past my plateau. I measured everything today and I'm actually losing in places I didn't realize I could/needed to lose. I'm hopeful that this next week will be just as successful as the past 2.