First Day of Workout

The beginning of week 3 starts tomorrow morning. I have been healthier on my diet this past week and it is such a struggle because I am premenstrual, I have cravings, an increased appetite and I am extremely tired. So basically all I want to do is eat junk food, lay in the bed and lots of it. I cheated today because I had a sandwhich and some chips at my grandmas house after I had dinner. Up until then, I had oatmeal and a hard boiled egg, left over spaghetti and a tuna salad and a green burrito and for dinner I had grilled fish and some asparagus. A very healthy day until...........................I go back to my grandmas and of course I am still hungry so I eat a half of sandwich, chips. Not good at all. So I really need to stay at home when I am in these cravings mode because I have no temptations at home. Tomorrow I plan on doing cardio and weight resistance. Just turkey bacon for breakfast, left over dinner for lunch and maybe the veggie soup for dinner. I really need to lose this weight. Its like the last piece to reaching the pentacle of my physical appearance. At this point it is the only thing any man or woman can say they have over me. If I dont do this for myself my self-worth and confidence will continue to steadily decline. Its just so damn hard, its almost like I do not have any room to fuck up on any level. As soon as I eat too much of anything or anything bad I instantly feel guilty. I just hate it. But I guess I have to treat every day as  a new day to become better at it.