The Program

I'm feeling very anxious today. I got into it with a co-worker on why I should be proud of the progress that I have made. Unfortunately my weight is something that I hide behind and if it is not there anymore how will I protect myself. So of course I lashed out the only way I know how... by being mean. I don't feel I have a right to be proud of what I have done because it is such a small amount in the scheme of things. I also don't have any goals set so that I won't have to feel anything if I have a set back. It is really hard to be doing this without the safety net of the doctor and I don't know where to go from here. It all feels so overwhelming! I'm in a twelve step program but I have yet to start on the steps.... I need someone to guide me. I'm going to call Renee tomorrow and ask for help.