It's time

I am so tired of being overweight. I had a baby roughly 21 months ago and im tired of using him as an excuse. Before the baby I was super skinny and not that im a cruel person but i would always rag on people about how if they dont like their body that they only have one chance at life. Why would you go through life unhappy with your body. Lets just suppose that we arent gonna get reborn. Why on earth would anyone want to spend their life self conscience and nervous. All this is because of body fat. I feel huge, and for a good reason, i am. So to all those people who i told that being skinny or not fat is a decision that should be easy to make to just not overeat i apologize. Because it really is a drug. Food controls people in a way. I have unsuccessfully tried to diet for 6 months now. I know its bad to start a diet on the New Years but im a target goal type of person. So when New Years comes around i am not going to make excuses for myself anymore. I am not happy with my body and i am gonna change. I am going to lose this weight.