This Is It!

32....and two children later. The time has come for me to take over control of my weight and body! I mean I have tried every diet pill you can name. To be honest after kid one, metabolife was life changing. But I shiver to think of the damage I may have actually caused to myself that are still yet unknown. That little magic pill took me from a size 14 to 4, and started a dedication of the search for the next magic pill. Here I am after child number two, and I'll be honest and say I have looked for another magic pill, even found phentermine. But at 32 I am realizing they dont work, they are mood altering and just junk. I need to fix the true underlying problem, and thats what I eat and how out of shape I have become. So tomorrow is the day the battle that has beat me so many times before becomes the looser. I can do this and I have to say that I find myself feeling very motivated by mtv's I used to be fat. For the first time I really accepted that it is just not easy, there are no magic pills. It is going to take dedication, hard work and time. I loved the me I was when I was small and my body didnt feel so heavy. I can do this, and I will do this. I found this site by chance, and I hope that at times where I need support I may find it here and also be a supporter for someone just the same. Its hard, I have two children, I work, and I find it hard to really take the time. But Im watching my children learn horrible eating habits, and I promise last night while in the bed, my thighs begin to hurt while laying on my side. Tomorrow is the day, where I begin a battle that I intend to win. Heres looking ahead to the new me. Good luck to all!