this is gonna be the roughest 1st month of my life! but so worth it in the end to be healthy!

well today is day two of my diet i know i know not that far in but just not having pop is a challenge within itself..its so tempting i manage a fast food resturant and i have acess to all the free pop i want...tough! well i did lose about 115 lbs two yrs ago and then things fell apart with my ex fiance and i left him for the better i might add i have no regrets my life is SO much better without him in it...and i gained it ALL back and pry about ten more lbs ....i have a very active lifestyle i work two jobs and the first is very demanding im a mgr for a fast food chain and the second i work in the mall in retail so i am on my feet all the time....im so very proud of myself ive drank tons of water in the past two day yes yes used a few crystal light packets in them and lemon....i am going on a cruise in the middle of july think its possible to lose 60lbs by then? i have tons of old clothes in my closet that i cant fit into it sucks and i REFUSE to get rid of them...lame huh? i am taking a mulit vitamin everyday to makeup for what i might lack..i figure i will weigh myself on sunday and see how its going you think thats too soon that will be 6 days i have been on my diet u think i will even notice i hope  my boyfriend that i am seeing now doesnt understand why i want to lose weight i dont think he understands he says im beautiful at any wieght i am wether its thin or as i call myself chunky lol he doesnt understand if im not comfortable in my own skin something has to change i dont by any means want to be stick thin my body wont let me and my height but just healthy and happy with the way i look i wish he would understand that its not about anyoneelse its about me being healthy and happy is all i want i just feel uggghh ya know just not happy cant fit into clothes have to go to the bigger girl section when before i was in a size 10 jeans not an 18 eeekkk...i hate it......well i open for hints and tips and uplifiting advice its nice to vent and write on here...time for work..