Committed...In a Good Way

So this isn't really day one.  It's more like day three of not shoveling every God forsaken thing down my throat.

I have watched as my taut athlete's build slowly disappeared and was replaced by the freshman fifteen...the sophomore twenty...the law school ten, etc. until one morning I looked in the mirror and my abs were covered with flab and my 5'4 frame went from 120 to 154 pounds.  Even my fiance took notice, which was incredibly embarrassing.

I never really struggled with my weight.  I played soccer, ate whatever I wanted, and managed to keep a healthy, muscular build.  But it was like as soon as I left my teens, everything went downhill.  Add to that the sedentary lifestyle of a "devoted law student" and there isn't much time for exercise.  In fact, I'm neglecting my outlines right now just to write this blog.

I have just started, but I am struggling.  The exercise I do not mind.  I joined the gym on Friday, April 8, and I have been there nearly every day.  I try to go five days a week and take two days off so my muscles can rest and rebuild.  My current schedule is Saturday, Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday.  I love working out.  I love the way it makes my body feel, and I like to pretend I see muscle whenever I am done -- it motivates me!  The group classes are equally motivating because I have people around me of all different body types and sizes aiming for the same goal: being healthy.

I don't want to be fat.  Most of the women in my family are overweight.  My BMI says I am "overweight," but until they create a BMI scale that takes into consideration the contours and machinations of a black woman's body, I will tell the BMI to sit in a corner.  I just want to be healthy.  My fiance used to be a personal trainer before he took on corporate America, so watching him workout and getting tips on my own workout routine is great.  I assume I have a recipe for (hopeful) success.  But it's the food that is killing me.

I have just started calorie counting.  It is hard measuring out the food out before you eat it.  And once you begin to cut back your caloric intake, it's as if everything seems appetizing.  Even food you never ate before calls out to you.  This is what I'm struggling with the most and i am working on it.  Let's hope it gets better with time.

I can only go up from here.