Stubborn 10

Well, it is day 2 of the 3day diet and I dropped 3 lbs yesterday.. It looks like I may begin to plateau soon.. I stopped the diet 2 years ago because I couldn't get past the 188 mark and now I finally have!! Yea for me..
Things with the wife and I could be MUCH better than they are.. We have drifted sooo far apart.. As I am sure many others have too.. It just seems that she doesn't care about me at all anymore.. Never shows affection, wants to be or do anything together anymore..

First it was my beard, she doesn't like the feel of a beard kissing her so I shaved it off.. Next it was the goatee, she didn't like that either so,,,, I shaved it off too..

Of course, now its my weight..  She doesn't like it me being 215 and uses the excuse that she is worried about me getting bigger and my healt.. Soooo  yup I loss the weight.. I started at a never seen before too heavy 215!!!  I agree it was too much to carry around and I took it to heart..  I have lost a wooping 33.5 lbs since the beginning!!!  I am really beginning to look good again for the first time in YEARS..   I can't believe I was thought to be in my late 30's from a new friend yesterday...  Awsome..    I am starting to feel good too but it is so hard KNOWING that it was just all excuses from her hiding her true feelings (or massive lack of )

It really sucks knowing you are in a relationship for the kids..   Life could be so much better with someone that WANTS to be with and spend time with you.. Oh well.  I'll stop my whinning for now, Chris is coming over at 11 and I need to be ready for that.. Later.   relationships what a lot of work when your in it alone.. :(