And so do so many other people struggling with weight loss. I sit here, envying the girls I see. The ones with such thin waists, twig legs, skinny arms. Nothing but envy.
Nothing but beautiful.
And I cannot find anything else Iwould rather be doing but loosing weight. I think about my body way to often, and am never happy when I do. I am by no means fat, but I am not thin. I don't want to be that "skinny girl" I want to be "that fit girl". She is the one who deserves the recognition, a body you notice because you know it has taken effort and time to create.
All I need is a little motivation. As much as I tell my self what I want to be different, what I need to do differenlty, what work outs I should do when I get home from work, I don't follow through. I never keep it up. In the end I feel like a failure. How is it that I have such little motivation and almost no self control when I want the end result so badly. Why can't I just do it?
I've done it before and that's whats so frustrating. In the beginning of high school I was a bit chubby, however I became a vegetarian, created a diet plan, and worked out almost every day. I was finally thin. I could finally share my pants with my friends, and I was happy.
Then university happened. Let me tell you, freshman 15 is not a lie. I drank way to much, did not exercise, probably let my diet slip a bit and next thing you know my pants wont do up. All my hard work gone. After my first year, I tried to loose weight over the summer. I probably lost 6 pounds, but not all of it. My clothes fit again.. just still a bit snug. I have just completed my second year and I probably didn't gain more then a few pounds but that's not okay with me. If I continue slowly adding a few pounds every year I will be fat in no time.
So I'm starting right now. And I will keep track of everything I do. So maybe one day a girl like me, will find this, and know she can do it too.
PS: I would really like a partner in this. Someone who can help me out along the way. If you're interested in being each others motivations, please contact me. I know that working with someone will help me through this!
