Slowly but Surely

Well, I had a baby in Jan. She was 7 lbs.8oz. Beautiful. I was so happy to be having her. During my pregnancy, I did good with not gaining a bunch of weight. I was bragging about how I wasn't putting the pounds on......then came my 8th months and I noticed some weight starting to show. I thought no big deal, I'm in 3rd trimester so I'm suppose to gain some. By the 9th month, I really packed on the pounds. They just kept adding on and on. Jan. 21st, My doctor took Baylee by c-section 3 days early. It was amazing. The end of my pregnancy had left me with 65 pounds of extra weight to my body. At the time, I just thought it will start to come off soon. I didn't really focus on it to much. That is until, month after month, the weight wasn't coming off any. I got depressed, I hated my body, and I had the worse self-esteem I believe I could have. I finally made up my mind to lose weight when I seen a picture of myself and I was huge! It was awful. I cried because of how big I was and I felt ugly. So I went to my doctor and told her about my situation. She started me on diet meds. and in a month of using them I lost 11 pounds. I was happy. Finally, I was seeing some kind of improvement. The weight kept coming off. 2 months led to 20 ponds lost. People started noticing I was losing weight and I felt good. Now I'm in the 3rd month and I started noticing that the weight I was losing was just hanging there. It wasn't getting firm and while the scale was showing that I was losing weight, I couldn't really tell a difference. Discouraged again! I am now exercising 2 times a day. It was hard at first. I was so sore and tired. Not to mention hungry. I thought it wasn't doing any good. I was so upset. One morning, I woke up and was getting ready to start my day. looking in the mirror, I notice that my love handles were almost gone! I started checking my self out. My butt looked smaller, my thighs were more firm and my baggy clothes had been hiding this. So excited, I went to try on my smaller blue jeans and they fit....a little tight but I got them on. Now, I have lost 32 pounds in all so far and down 3 pants size. I can even wear a bikini! I still have a way to go but for now, I'm happy. I'm so proud of myself. I feel good bout myself. I start a gym tomorrow, and I go back to the doctor for a weigh in on august 12th. can't wait to see the results this time. Its taken a while to get this going but Its starting!