Well, I've spent a considerable amount of time on this site and have learned quite a bit. I am successfully logging every bite which is the new habit that I'm currently working to set in place. My wonderful husband, in a show of affection, loves to fix my plate if I'm not there when he is ready to eat. Usually, I fuss b/c he always puts too much and then just eat it anyway. I didn't last night.
Instead, I explained that the amounts were a little more than I had logged into my plan. I got up, measured everything and put the excess back into the serving bowls. Then I didn't eat any snacks! Whoo-Hoo!!!
I've steadily been increasing my activity. With two horses to train, one of my toughest classes about to start, and a house to maintain, my day is pretty full. AND I LOVE IT!!! I feel useful again! I feel alive. Yes, I hurt and, sometimes, I have to hit the pain meds, but, pain means that I am alive. I know that as I continue, the pain will dull down except for the nerve damage in my neck and shoulders. But, I'll figure out a way to deal with that, too. I'm not going to stop living. I am going to be this diabetes, this high blood pressure, and this nerve damage. This is MY body.
Plus, I've found a truck load of cute clothes that I want to be able to wear this winter.
So, to all of you walking this same journey, keep the faith and don't give up. If you slip, then look to see how or why, learn from that and move on. But don't allow yourself to give up or quit!
