Hello, everyone. I have never done a blog before so I am just gonna treat this like a diary.
Where to begin, I am 22 years old and have struggled with my weight my entire life. Elementary school wasnt too bad but when i hit the 6th grade i got depression really bad, i mean i went from having straight A's to straight F's and it wasnt because I didnt know how to do the work, I just didnt want to. 3 years later when i was in 9th grade it got bad again I didnt want to live with my parents anymore. So my dad threatened to send me to a group home and that didnt pan out because he didnt want to have to get a social worker. So I went and lived at my aunt and uncles house for about 2 weeks then my dad said that it wasnt doing any good so i was forced to go back home. Within a week of being home i just couldnt stay there so we finally decided that i was gonna go live with my grandparents in a completely different state.
Living with my grandparents was a lot better. While living with my grandparents I learned how to play the clarinet and I loved it and sophmore year i ended up joining the marching band <i wasnt that great of a clarinet player> and iI decided to switch to the flag team and i enjoyed it very much. Then i found that i really like theatre so i joined that and was in multiple plays. However I never seemed to get a big role and that had to be because of my size and my confidence.
2 months after i moved to arizona my parents did too. After sophmore year my mom and i started getting along better and we decided that i could move back home. So i changed schools and everything was fine for a lil while then it all went bad again. I think the reason I couldnt live at my parents house was because my mother and I are so much a like and we butt heads a lot. I hate being yelled at and that happened a lot at home. I am very opinionated and hate being told that my opinion doesnt matter.
So long story short, i am currently living back at my grandparents house temporarily in California, looking for work so i can move out on my own, and I have decided that I desparately need to lose weight...I am at the heaviest I have ever been and I hate it.
My current weight is 296.4 lbs and I cant stand it anymore!!!!
