2012-Starting Somewhere

Recovering from NYE was fun, I spent 1-1-2012 sleeping, no hangover because I didn't drink the night before. Merely stayed up late. Today I measured how tall or how short, since that seems to more accurately describe the outcome of my measuring. Then I weighed myself and that was a suicidal moment (not to make light or fun just to describe). I was over it quickly. Then I had my husband snap 4 pictures of me for me to keep on file. I have hit the epitome of the bottom of the barrel. This is all on me, my husband loves me for who I am and embraces my body. I've opted to gym, eat right and maybe through in a weight-loss hypnosis thing into the mix. Really I doubt it could hurt. The family medical breakdown. Biological Mother: Type 2 Diabetes. Psoriatic Arthritis. She is on insulin because the PA causes her to not be able to regulate her blood sugars. She had cancer, a rare tumor that grew on her kidney and attached itself to her adrenal gland. When she had it removed the adrenal gland went with it. The cancer Pheocarcinoma which seems to be, "The Holy Grail" of cancer (my doctor tells me with glee and excitement in her eyes), it causes you to have blood pressure problems. Me: I have the blood pressure problems. I'm sure 80% of it is because of my weight, 10% due to heredity and 10% because of my work. Biological Father: He is a drug addict and alcoholic, he is only a practicing alcoholic now, I don't call him a recovering addict since he never stopped he just traded it in for other addictions. Me: I don't have issues with alcohol or other addictions, I'm obsessively aware of who I am and am a bit OCD so I don't approve of myself getting out of control. Mothers Parents: Mother Esophageal Cancer. Father passed from a massive stroke, he was a smoker for 70 yrs, he lived a log life. Me: I don't smoke, esophageal problems only relate to me due to thin lining, no issues, just aware. Fathers Parents: Mother minimal heart problems, alcohol addicted. Father killed himself when I was a yr old. Me: No known heart problems. And I'm still alive. So, I'm looking forward to 2012. I am hoping to lose about 60lbs and will happily try my hardest. I don't have a problem losing the weight, I have problems staying motivated. I work 80 hours a week, sometimes 100 hours a week. I am always on call. I work from work, on the road and from home. I am a Project Manager for the World's 4th largest Electrical Firm. I specialize in utility grade substations and renewable energies. I'm the 3rd most profitable PM in my company, out of 60 PM's. I came to the company from engineering with the local gas company, prior to that I was an Operations Manager for the Phone Utility. I've been married for 5 yr, he is amazing, my best friend, my biggest fan. This is my second marriage, first one was 10yrs. I have no children. I have a cat. Sasha is a 1 yr old Main Coon/ Makerel Tabby. She is amazing.