Staying motivated.....

 Well it is now the fourth week and i'm down 5.2 pounds this week. I am very happy so far with my progress. I keep trying on old clothes that I'm not quite ready for yet and getting disappointed in myself. Not sure if this is hindering or helping really. I'm very excited for the next couple of weeks. My hubby and myself and our little girl are going to cancun in 2 weeks. This of course is a plus and a negative in my mind. Never thought I'd think going somewhere sunny and warm would be a negative but of course my mind turns it into wanting to look my best in my bathing suit. I have about 7 bikinis from when I was pregnant and we went to puerto vallarta and cancun and I have about 4 bikinis from the years before I was pregnant that theres no possible way I could squeeze into right now. So then I must shop, now dilema of course is do I go for a full piece, and not get that sweet tan I'm longing for so much or find the bikini that best suits me now....not sure how that is possible right now... ugh.. 
well enough about that. I am trying to stay on track, however the other day I will confess I ate 7 multi-grain goldfish crackers....I know it doesn't seem like anything but I have been so good sticking to this mealplan I have that I really don't want to veer off it for any reason....well of course I will be veering off it when we go to mexico, I don't think this all inclusive is going to let me in the kitchen to whip up this vegetable soup I've been living off of, or make sure there is no oil,butter,sauce on anything I eat....yes so that as well should be interesting...I'm only allowing myself 2 pieces of fruit a day but how am I going to stick to that when there will be so many wonderful fresh fruits...hmmmm.. again another dilema.... well I'm not going to stress about it I'm just going to do my best and when I get home see where I'm at, and I still have two weeks here to make a difference in my body/mind still so I will just stay focused... I was thinking of taking some before and after photos...of course this was at my husbands prodding, he thinks that it would be good to see how far I'm going. He says you can see such a great difference already but really I think he is married to me ... what else is he going to say really!! poor guy he just can't win in this situation.
Well I will contemplate this photo issue for the week and see if I'm brave enough to document this in picture form.
It's not who you are that holds you back, it’s who you think you’re not.
– Anon