This weekend was so difficult for me... I am so frustrated with myself :(
On Friday, a group of friends came over to my place and were having a few drinks and convinced me to have one or two. But then, the more loosened up I got (and the further from my calorie goal I got) the more okay I became with eating. I ended up consuming an entire packeage of Ritz crackers, as well as several tablespoons of peanutbutter... I mean as far as health goes, at least it wasn't pizza or fries but I still feel like I failed.
Then the next night it was the same type of situation. I went out with some friends and before I know it they are buying me drinks and I just drank the caloric equivalent of a meal. So today I decided to just let myself eat what I wanted (which still was surprisingly healthy and did not include any greasy or fried foods) but my intake rose to about 1800 for the day... if not more towards 2000. I purposely didn't mark it down... ugh.
So decision: I need to stop allowing myself to go drinking with my friends, or at least avoid alcohol when I go out with them. I can always treat myself to a diet soda or something right? But they just love to pressure me... it is almost as if they are trying to see if they can get me to break my healthy streak or something, and that thought is incredibly depressing to me.
But I will restart tomorrow. I won't let a bad weekend define what I am doing. Maybe I'll even allow myself one night per week to indulge a little, so that it won't be so difficult to stick to it. Either way, I MUST keep going. I can't let myself fail at this. My health, happiness, and confidence in my appearance are more important to me than the taste of a beer.
