New start.

Almost all my life I have struggled with weight.  Both my mom and grandmother are "bigger" woman.  My mothers sister died because she was to overweight.  Sometimes I just want to break down and eat as much as I can.  Getting on the scale makes me want to cry.  I am embarrased.  Some people may think its so easy to just stay away from food urges and exersize.  But food is always on my mind.  It is heard to stay away from.  I am 5ft and 5in and I am 160 pounds.  I want to cry at that weight. But I know with determination and support plus a positive attitude I can loose it.  But staying away from food and high calorie cookies and cake....well its hard.  Some people don't understand.  Because it is easy for them.   But I am not as lucky, and it is NOT easy for me.  "sigh"