Being overweight has not always been an issue for me. For years I was slender, then slowly the weight began to creep on - inch by inch, pound by pound. I denied the process and blinded myself to what was happening with my body, until I could no longer deny the truth. I was fat. To me, it seemed to happen overnight, even though I rationally understand it took a few years.
I didn't like who I had become, and took steps to hide it. I no longer allowed people to take pictures of me if I could avoid it. My facebook is full of cute pictures of my pets, but the only images of me are old and are of my face. At a recent family birthday party, I hid behind a door when the cameras were pulled out. I don't want to be seen. I always feel like the fattest person in the room. Going shopping for clothes will often leave me in tears.
So, that's it. I know I have to change my life, and I have to start now. It's going to be a slow process. I didn't gain all this weight overnight, so I'm not going to be able to lose it overnight either. I've tried diets in the past, but nothing has worked. No matter how hard I try, I seem to always gain more weight then I lose. I'm starting today at 220lbs. My ultimate goal is around 145lbs, but right now I'm just shooting for two-hundred.
