Well, this is my first post of my first ever weight loss blog, but its not my first attempt to lose weight.I'm hoping that this blog will help to keep up my good intentions but ive never been able to be strict with myself. Every diet I've ever started lasted all of two weeks,a month if I'm lucky but I feel the need to lose weight more so now than ever,even when I was a teenager and my weight kept me constantly depressed.I need to lose weight now,not for myself but for my two daughters.I have a 5 yr old and 3 yr old. My 5 yr old, Sevana has several times in the past few months reasonably pointed out that I'm fat,or that my snacks are not healthy.I'm not sure where she has picked this up from but its undeniably true.I can polish off a pack or two of debbie snacks in two days if Im trying to control my urges.I rarely eat a real meal other than dinner,and while I make sure there's always veggies for the kids i rarely eat them myself,and if i do,its a very small portion.As for my 3 yr old, Brianna its a constant struggle to get her to eat anything other than bread or sugary snacks,Im often afraid she'll starve herself,she is very stubborn and she is a carb junkie as I am.She is not obese or even fat but I see she has the potential to be so if I cannot make a change now. My husband was recently diagnosed with diabetes and this has made a positive impact in that we now eat whole grains and more veggies,and a little less of the sugary junk but to say we have cut it out entirely would be a blatant lie.My husband has done rather well with his diet,and has lost some weight but I long since broke my promise to diet with him.As for exercise,well my husband and I both have jobs where we must constantly be on our feet,moving...but that doesn't seem to be enough to lose weight,as our time at home is spent on the couch.I tell myself every morning when I get home(as I work nights) that I will take the girls to the park and we will walk around the pond,but I get home and fatigue soon sets in and I find myself hard pressed to do much of anything after Ive cleaned up the house a bit.I've lived with this body of mine all my life and I can honestly say most of the time it rarely bothers me anymore(though at one time i was constantly depressed and I couldnt stand to look in any mirror)but i think its simply because Ive found myself lacking in will power and self control and have resigned myself to being fat forever....but when I think of my girls,and hardships they might be faced with if they wind up following in my footsteps I am heart broken.I know they are children and learn as children do,by example and so far in their short lives I have set a very poor example.I know that I need to step it up and muster what strength I have and from now on resolve to set a positive example.I am hoping to find friends who are like-minded on this issue who will help me to be a Good Example for my girls..I will try my best to make an entry in my blog every morning when I get home from work rather than fb like I am wont to do,and if any read this blog and wish to offer encouragment I'd greatly appreciate it!Lord knows I will need all the help I can get.
