.. falling on my head like a memory .. falling on my head like a new emotion".
Texas - 1/1/2013
I think the rains of yesterday washed away more than just the dust .. it washed away the dusty rubble of the past so I can rebuild my future.
This isn't my first time here .. last year (maybe the 2nd week of January?) I was over 300 lbs, had high blood pressure so bad I had to go to the emergency room, my life seemed like it was spiraling out of control and I was definitely not happy.
I wasn't where I wanted to be (physically) at the end of 2012 but I was there mentally and emotionally. (Still working on the spiritual side but that's a harder road to travel) So, all in all, not a bad place to start "this" year.
Since January of last year I've lost 42 lbs and gained 10 back **but** I keep fighting to keep it 32, dang it all! This year I want/need/desire to drop *at least* 40 lbs by June and another 34 by December 31st 2013.
If I lose more (like my total goal of 114) then "Yay! I am super made of awesome!" but if not then that's all right. Each pound lost, and kept off, is a success I can keep myself going strong with.
If anyone out there reads this .. thanks. And good luck with whatever goal, place and time you find yourself. I wish you all the success and prosperity life has to offer you!
Cher
