The Journey That Never Ends

My true weight loss journey started just over a year ago. I began to exercise and try to eat right. I wanted to change my life style so that I could lose weight and be healthy. I want to live a long time and watch my Children grow up and have children of their own. I have struggled with my weight for a very long time. But about a year and a half ago I was at my worst. I had hit 240 pounds. I was 123 pounds at age 18 and after my first two kids I managed to get back down to 140 pounds. After I remarried I had another baby and the pounds came off after ward, but then I got lazy and depressed and the pounds started packing on. I didn't really notice that I was that big and I didn't really step on a scale to find out either. I would just ignore it. I knew I was wearing clothes the largest size I had ever bought and I knew I was uncomfortable, but I just didn't put in my thoughts that I was so unhealthy and big. We ate fast food a lot and l would snack on chips and junk a lot. I was driving home from work one day and a guy had cut me off and we had words, but the words that hurt the worst were when he called me a fat pig. I am sitting in my car and he couldn't see me yet he could tell by just my head that I was enormous. I went home and got on the scale and was devistated with what I saw on that scale. I decided to start working out at the gym. Then I slowly implimented better food choices. Lost a few pounds over a couple of months and then got discouraged. Stopped working out and eating right. Then I joined The Biggest Loser on line and ended up losing 40 pounds with the help of that website. Money got tight and I had to quit. I maintained my weight loss for a couple months but when my hubby came back from deployment we started falling back into all the poor eating habits again. I gained 10 pounds back in 3 weeks. I joined OneLife Fitness in December and have been going 4 days a week. I would lose a few pounds and then gain them back. I realized that I need to get back to the healthy eating and I know I needed to find a website that would keep me accountable. If I log everything that goes in my mouth I will lose the weight. When I don't pay attention I just eat what ever I want. My goal is to be 140 pounds again. I have 68 pounds to go. I can do this. I know that I can. I just have to keep myself accountable and keep myself moving. I have to stop eating those unhealthy fast foods and junk foods. I need to stop drinking soda too. Today I start that, today I have cut myself from soda and I have all the right foods to eat at my disposal. I WILL LOSE THOSE 68 POUNDS.