I have managed to gain 6lbs in 5 days, normally I would use that as an excuse to continue to spiral out of control but today I decided to take charge and change my eating habits and pin point what happened and how to change.
I have realised that I use to place blame on a hard day at work, hard time with family, hard time with strangers... the truth is I was just looking for an excuse to continue to stuff my face with sugar so that I don't have to feel guilty but in reality I always feel guilty after a binge so i was just placing guilt on top of guilt until I trapped myself under a mountain of sorrow and depression.
I no longer want to be that person and I know it will take time to change these habits and there may be relapses but it can't be any worse then what I am feeling now.
