well i'm here, my first blog! &talking about my weight,i've always kept my feelings to myself, not caring what others thought or obviouslynot caring myself. well i'm awake now,and Ireally don't like what i've let happen. I' ve always enjoyed eating,but now i'm starting to feel bad about it. food has always been there for me,emotionally a crutch, a substitute.when i'm in a good mood ,i eat,when i'm mad i eat, especially when i get depressed about being fat,it still doesn't keep me from eating. are there alot of others out there eating just because we can,then justify it with an excuse, talk back @ me,i'm not getting any younger,just fatter.