JESSICA

Where has my motivation gone? haha Has anyone else lost their New Years resolution determination? Ugh. It blows. I have even been avoiding this site lately because I don't want to face the facts! But the best way to deal with your problems is to look it right in the face. So here I am.. again. Its gotten so bad that I had to leave my cash, debit and visa at home just so I wouldn't purchase any food! What has happened to my control? I have lost it all, I need to find it again. It has gotten to the point where I will prepare this healthy full of nutrients meal. And its delicious, I feel completely satisfied.. even full! than my mind starts playing games with me. The noodles in the coboard start taunting me. Than next thing I know.. I've eaten 3 packets of noodles, cheese and nachos and ICING! wtf? how does this happen so quickly. And the saddest part of it is.. My body is getting more immune to the destruction I've put on it. I need change. I want change. I just have to help myself help me.