So far so good....

So I have only lost .2 pounds in the last week, which brings my total for 28 days to 7.4...Oh I just wanted that pound more so it was 2 pounds a week..but oh well. I think I need to tweak my diet a little better. I am eating the right amount of calories but I think I am not eating the right foods. I don't think I am eating enough protein, my protein is never high enough. I realized yesterday that it has been a month since I have had pop or chips or even butter...I am definitely feeling better...oddly enough my number 2's (TMI..sorry) are different. I am not having gut aches and having to run to the washroom. I don't feel bloated. I have more energy. I want to do more, I feel like I have to do more or I have wasted a day. Don't want to fall off the workout bandwagon..

My husband has been a tremendous support, doesn't tease me with food or eat crappy stuff in front of me. I know some spouses do that, they think their wife is going to get all skinny and then leave them..
I just don't want to feel like I am invisible anymore. I want to wear nicer clothes, more fitted clothes. I don't want to hide behind layers or baggyess.

I do think how I look affects how people look at me, especially at work. Wow she can't take care of herself how is she going to do the work mentality. Especially from men. I swear the 80 pounds I gained dropped my IQ 80 points. Mind you I am not doing this for them, I am doing this for me. I want to be healthy, I want to play with my kids. I want to take up baseball again and not waddle around the bases b/c my knees hurt so much. I want to travel and walk everywhere..I want to fit in rides and not have them dig in my sides and hurt me. I want to feel like I am here participating in life and not just on the sidelines.