So far so good....

So a couple of weeks ago, I had my first gain. Gained 2 pounds, was pretty depressed about it, but knew it was because of the lifestyle I led for a week. Eating out, birthday cakes..not cake..CAKES...not exercising as hard as I should. So then it took me these last 2 weeks to lose what I had gained and one extra pound. It is so easy to slide and gain it back. I have found that I need to find a balance between being good and being with friends. I want to socialize and go out, but I find that when I do, I just eat too much, don't care and pay the price, but I don't want to become a hermit who is too afraid to do anything with her friends.

Last night we all went out for dinner. I knew were going to on Friday so I made it my cheat meal...so I thought good, now I have that done I can concentrate on eating well for the next 7 days...but then those same friends call and say they are coming over. Its hard b/c they bring junk food with them, beer (not that I drink the beer), pop, chips, meat and cheese tray. I skipped the beer and the snacks, but I love the cheese. I think I did ok and didn't eat too much.

How do people do this, lose weight but not lose themselves in the process? I am very social by nature and I don't want to say no to going out with friends b/c I am too afraid of sliding, but right now I am. Its almost like I NEED to become a hermit until I get control of myself. Does this make sense?

I am also need to stop worrying about a person I have been trying to lose weight with. I don't think she is committed to losing weight as I am and I worry about her. But I think for now I need to worry about myself and not her. I can't make someone get with the program if they aren't ready...