The Right Talk
Monday, April 4, 2011 at 12:43 PM filed under General postings
Yesterday I spent the day with my sister and my niece. I was telling her how when I get hungry, I feel like I'm going to throw up, and lately (and I'm guessing this is when I overeat), I get this really bad uncomfortable feeling in my stomach. Usually when I overeat it's just pain, but this is different. She says that maybe my body's tired of being the way it is. Maybe it's telling me now is the time to change. My sister told me everyone needs to sit down and make a food plan and exercise plan to just be healthy. The difference with me is that I'm addicted to food. She told me that my time will come soon, like her time was four years ago. She use to be addicted to drugs. She said four years ago she just woke up and never did them again. She told me when the time is right, I'll just wake up and start eating better and exercising.
Talking to her made me feel a little better, and really think about what I was doing. As much as I want to wait for the morning I'll wake up and just have everything be a lifestyle, that could be years from now! So, I'm going to meet it in the middle. I'm going to start recording again, no matter if I go over or have a bad day, I'm going to do my best to record everything. My boyfriend's cousin is a kinesiology major and told me I won't need to be doing this the rest of my life if I don't want to, but to get an idea of what I need to be use to and getting use to it, I should continue recording.
Last week I did turbo kickboxing. It's TTh nights and I went Tuesday. Although I had no idea what I was doing, I had fun, felt a little sore the next day, and during the class I was getting up a sweat. MW they have pilates and I'm really debating if I want to try it or not. if I do both of these, I start with four days of exercise a week. It may not be a bad start, but I need to lose this weight. I hate the feeling it gives me and just how worn out I am generally.
It's doing this, and I don't think many people realize it. They say they do, but what do they know if they've been skinny their whole lives.
