It will work this time!!!!

I am hitting my target for staying under a certain amount of sugar, and doing really well on keeping the fat under the target. I am just going over the calories every day, getting twice as much sodium, and not hitting my target for Iron or Calcium. I need to add some veggies to my diet. I am not really eating anything that is particularly bad, but it seems that all added up it is not hitting where I need to be. ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... I am determined to have more green on my diet tracker! I want all of the boxes to be green. I know that I can't hit that every day, but I CAN try to get more things in my diet that have Iron and Calcium, and are way lower in Sodium. I also need to add about 4 more glasses of water to my diet per day. I am getting about 4 every day. Basically, right now I am just journaling to see what I am eating. I want to get an idea of what works and what doesn't. I'm going to gradually make small changes, such as adding things to my diet to be healthier. I'm not going to remove anything right now, I will just reduce how much of it I eat so I don't deprive myself, get fed up, and quit. So the goal right now is to journal every day and get in the habit of recording everything. That makes me more aware of what I am putting in my mouth, and by default I am hoping I will eat healthier in the long run. ................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ I am NOT doing this to lose weight, I am actually trying to be healthier, and I'm hoping to lose weight as I get healthier because I am not at a healthy weight right now. When my goal was weight loss all I did was obsess about the scale and what it said. I recently went to the doc, and a lot of why I don't feel good is that I am unhealthy, and I eat like crap. So, my goal is to get healthier, feel better, and hopefully my body will respond by losing weight. Even though I am the heaviest I have EVER been in my life, I am still pretty much happy with me and can deal with the weight. I just don't like feeling like crap, so it's time to do something about it. (-: I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome, High Blood Pressure, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and am on medication for Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety. I am TOO young to be on so much medication, and to be so beat up. It's time for a change!!!!................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ One of the pictures I attached of me and my sweet girl, Azul was one of the wake up calls that I needed to be see what I have done. I was in shape and was healthy when I was in the military. Now that there is no-one looking over my shoulder I have gotten out of control. I was a bit on the heavy side on active duty, but never this heavy. WOW! ................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ And on another note, I have noticed that even though I am going over my upper goal of 1,406 calories, I am not getting near 2,000 calories. When I was on active duty I was hitting over 2,000 regularly. I also noticed that the progress chart shows that I am still negative on calories to maintain my current weight. So, that is a plus.