Different approach

No matter how far I've come I can't see beyond today. The scale number shouldn't mean crap and I shouldn't let it bother me but when I see the number go up it colors my whole day for the worst. That number is sometimes the key to whether I will stay on track as far as calorie intake. The only shining spot to this whole episode is that I take my dog for a walk everyday now. I don't know how I can keep a commitment to her to be walked everyday but I can't keep a commitment to eat only 1200 calories. I feel alone in my struggle. I know that I have a problem with food but I don't know how to control it. I tried to do the support group thing but it just didn't feel like a right fit for me. I couldn't relate to anyones story there and I didn't feel right after sharing. I felt like crying all the time and didn't feel any relief after going there. In fact it made me feel worse about myself.