Today has been a long days. Of all the days to get back on the wagon, it has to be the longest day I've had yet this summer. My morning started at 4:15 this morning. Between 6 am and 10 am I was at work, then I spent an hour in the pool. In 50 minutes I swam 1000 yards (40 laps). I feel like I could have done better, but that's not bad for just getting back in the pool. It does make me miss competing in swimming and soccer. After I was dried up and returned the key back to my grandparents, I rushed to class. I was feeling fine until I realized I fell asleep in class. As the class moved to the computer lab, I took it as my chance to duck out so that I couldn't be disrespectful because it's been a crazy day, if you know what I mean.
I know everything I need to do to lose weight. Eat better. Exercise more. I think positive thinking also helps. I have learned to discipline myself academically, but I just haven't learned to discipline myself in this category yet. And here's a perfect example. My boyfriend and I were planning on walking 2.3 miles to go to Subway for dinner. It'll be almost a 5 mile round trip. It'll be good for both of us, but I'm just worn out. Isn't that the best time to push though? In my head, the next thing I would say is, "There's always next time. There's always tomorrow." I need to stop thinking there's always tomorrow.
The last time I remember losing weight when I felt amazing would be when I did weight watchers for three weeks with my biological mother (who I do not communicate iwth anymore). In three weeks I lost 17 pounds, and all I was doing was mainly eating portions and logging what I ate. So, I'm trying it again but without counting. I'm going to be faithful to this because I'm ready for change. I'm ready to get rid of this weight and start my future.
I started my summer weight loss journey at the end of April. In two months, I lost 11 pounds. Although my family may not accept it, I am proud because I finally did this on my own. I do agree with my step-mom that I just need to learn ot keep it off. That's what I'm trying to do. I weighed myself this morning and am two pounds heavier again, making it a nine pound loss. I will change this!
