Day 2...?

Here I go...... I'm a little uncertain of how successful I'll be at this point. I've tried diet/exercising before and have always stopped....excuse after excuse. I know starting off with a "can I?" instead of an "I can!" mentality isn't the most promising mental space but it's honest.

I know that I can do this because I have before. That was years ago and there has been so much failure (in this realm) since then.

I just know that I want it. I want it real bad.

So, to remind myself of my motivations (and perhaps motivate others who might read this) I will list my 'whys.'

1. I want to find clothing that I like as well as that fits me.
and I would like that clothing to not come with an extra "fat-   tax" (you know what I mean...when they add a couple of bucks because of the "x" size)
2. I want to go swimming this summer. Haven't done that since I've deemed myself too fat to
3. I want to be able to run again.
4. I want to have energy.
5. I'm tired of being the 'fat friend' or the only one breaking a sweat.
6. I'd like to head this pesky arthritis off at the pass....not aggravate it with all the extra weight I'm lugging around.
7. I want to stop feeling like I'm an embarrassment to my son....no one wants to have the 'fat-mom' at school events.
8. I want to feel the sense of accomplishment.
9. I want to set a great example for my son.
10. I want to be able to sit comfortably in the seats at the darn movie theater....right now they squeeze me!
11. I want to not feel guilty and like everyone is watching me at the buffet.
12. I want to be physically as 'up for anything' as I am mentally....I'm tired of just thinking it would be nice to do this or that but knowing full well that I would not be able to enjoy myself all sweated up and achy.
13. I don't want to delete precious time from my life.
14. I want to re-learn GoJu Ryu.....mentally I believe I still know great deal but the last time I tried to make my body do what my mind wanted to I almost killed myself.
15. I'd like to climb a tree.
16. I'd like to rock climb.
17. I'd like to be 'within the product weight limit' for home gym equipment.
18. I want to enjoy physical activities again...instead of dreading them like I do now.
19. I want to know that when the Zombie Apocalypse comes I will survive!...I'm going to need to run & climb & such.
20. I would like to live down every name I've ever been called, every negative stigma related to being fat, every social untruth about the self-worth of an overweight person.