New beginning

I don't want to be part of this world today. My body aches, my stomach is nauseous and I am so irritable. It is as though I need to be shut out from everyone and everything in order to function. I don't want to eat, work, or communicate with even the most basic of necessary words. For a brief moment, I envisioned Ron rubbing my back softly and telling me it's going to be okay. It almost helped. Now I am back to being my old hateful self. I was excited to see Impending Doom playing at Sonar next week... and then I  lost interest in that too. I don't feel depressed... I just have an utmost desire to isolate.