liz's blog

Not sure how to proceed with this. I've never really tried dieting before. I've worked out and did yoga (which I loved) but I've never really tried counting calories or anything like that. I want to do this for my kids and for myself. I've always had body image issues and it has gotten so bad in the last couple of years that I never want to leave my house because I can't stand it when people look at me. It's hard to say that and it really hurts to admit it but I've missed out on a lot of things just because I want to spare myself the pain. I can't stand to look at myself anymore and the longer this goes on the more I think that it's absolutely hopeless. God, I just want to be around to see my kids grow up. I really would like to set a good example for them so that maybe they can avoid becoming what I am now. I've dealt with my own hurt but I don't know if I could stand seing them go through the things I've gone through in my short time here. I want them to be happy, well-rounded girls who never feel like they aren't good enough for whatever their hearts desire. I know I can do this if I try. I know I can and maybe I can do it without starving myself like I've been doing. I don't know. Right now my confidence is pretty low but maybe with time I can drop some of this weight and feel like a real human being for once.