Getting Healthy

Goodmorning..Today is the 1st day of my new lifestyle..I have been reading a very motivating book by Drew Manning and its inspired me to do this and do it for my health..I have missed out on some of the very basics in life because of weight... Looking for cute clothes, going to get togethers..I have sheltered myself and just existed for so long..Lets start with my weight..I am currently 226..Yep you saw that right and my goal weight is 115..So I need to loose almost half my body..My goal is 365 days to get to where I want to be but if it takes longer than that than I am fine too.. This time I am not looking at this being a diet..I have tried those and they never work..This is my lifestyle..Because my health needs this change and so does my self esteem..When your FAT you begin to only live for Food..Any kind just food..Iam tired for living for food. I want to be able to get off the couch with no problem..I want to be abel to dress nice and have my finace proud of who he is with..I want to wear nice clothes like so many woman do..I dont want to run from the mirror..I want to run to the mirror..I have alot of people I havent seen in years just because of my weight..Iam ready to see them before it gets too late..I want to do more smiling than crying..I want to wear a dress again..I want to throw all my double digit size clothes out the window..I want to go to my closet and see all new things I can wear..I need to do this..Before it was a choice but now its a must..My health demands it!!!I guess the scary fact is knowing that I can do this and being afraid of that notion!!