A minor set back of a nice chest cold has put a slight damper on my spirit, but I am going to stick to this. Since I am just starting on an exercise routine I am only working out every other day as to not injur myself, so thankfully this is a down day for me. Hopefully this cold will be at bay by tomorrow, but if it isn't, I refuse to let it keep me down. I will still get up and walk at least 30 minutes even if it is at a much slower and less agressive pace. I know myself, and if I can use a cold as an excuse to not workout just one day then I will find an excuse any day! On the bright side, this cold is causing me to cough constantly, which in turn is causing me to drink a ton of water. The down side...a trip to the restroom every 30 minutes. My body is not used to this kind of water intake yet, but I will get there.
This is day 2 of no soda for me and I am happy to report that so far I am really not missing it. I think the constant consumption of water really helps to keep me from feeling deprived of anything though.
As far as my "diet" goes...well...I am not really changing what I eat so much as working on how much I eat right now. At dinner last night I had ONE serving rather than two like I usually do. (Let me assure you that I really wanted that second serving but didn't need it.) I did end up having an after dinner snack of a single rice crispy treat, but again, I limited myself. I really think that most of my weight issues are not so much what I eat, but the volume of what I take in and the sedentary life that I live.
When I weighed myself on January 1, 2013, I weighed in at a whopping 317 pounds. It is amazing to see that I have already dropped 3 and 1/2 pounds in just 3 days. I do know and understand that the first few weeks are when the weight drops off the quickest. (Like I said in my first post, this is not my first battle with weight loss.) My short term goal right now is to get down to 299 pounds. I want to be under that 300 pound mark in the worst way! From that point on I will move forward in 25 pound intervals. I will have "mini" celebrations for evey 25 pounds that I lose. When I lose my first 100 pounds my husband and I are going to actually take a vacation for the first time since we have been together. We never even went on a honeymoon, so this is incentive for us to not only take better care of ourselves and get rid of this extra weight, but to also pay off some of our credit card debt as we work towards or weight loss goals so that we can afford the vacation that we both deserve. :)
In addition to doing this for myself and living a happier and healthier life, I am also doing this in hopes of feeling better so that when my husband and I are ready to have children I can do so safely. Being overweight can cause so many extra complications during pregnancy, and my weight is something that only I have control over. There is no reason that I can't get down to a proper weight for my height of 155 pounds. It will reduce my risks during pregnancy and labor as well as many for my child. I just want to put everything out there and get all of my motives out on the table. Everyone will do this for their own personal reasons, and no one is going to lose weight until they are ready and willing to do it on their own terms. It is so difficult to do even when you have support, because it always feels like people are judging you on the way you look. As I said before, you and you alone have control over your weight. I think that is why people judge me so harshly for being so obese. No one else did this to me. I have struggled from the time I was a young child with my weight, and have continued to struggle into my adult years. Unfortunately no one was willing to help teach me the proper ways to eat and portion control. My parents simply told me that I was chubby or fat and left it at that. They never tried to teach me how to fix it. Instead of trying to get better I simply became bitter and just ate myself into a larger and larger body. I am letting all of that go and am doing this for me and for my future children. I am going to make sure that when I bring my children into this world that I am going to be as happy and healthy a person as I possibly can be. I will fight every day going forward to be the healthiest version of myself that I can be. I will never be satisfied with where I am until I have reached my goal weight of 155 pounds. Once I reach my goal weight I have made a promise to myself to never let myself get back out of shape and to always stay active and try to maintain my goal weight. I have a goal and I will reach it!
