Okay, I absolutely suck at exercise. It doesn't help that I hide any I do from mum, otherwise she does her whole "I hope you're not waging war on your body" thing. When did a bit of exercise become war?
Still, I can't blame her. There's plenty of time to exercise while she's asleep, plus anything I could do in my room.
The truth is, I'm just lazy. Being on this site helps, but the workouts I do are ridiculously short and burn up fuck all calories. I wish I could become one of those gym-junkie people. I mean, that must be the healthiest fucking addiction in existance! S
I know if I exercised more it wouldn't matter so much that I eat too much, but to be honest, it seems a lot easier to just eat less, even though that never really lasts.
I feel like I ate too much today. I keep telling myself I ate less calories than yesterday (although I didn't do as much exercise), but the fact I got the calories from solid food rather than from drinks, it feels worse.
I need to start drinking more water again as well. When I started at college I was drinking at least five or six bottles of water while I was there, plus three or four more at home. It felt good, it made me eat less. Then gradually I drank less water, ate more food. I was trying to eat everyday, for a while anyway. But eat translated to binge, and then when i wanted to stop again, i couldn't.
I used to be so good at this. I miss that.
