Sense To Someone Make Not Me

Oh god, I am such a pig! Why do I do this? It's so fucking stupid. i NEED to lose weight before i go back to college. I need to. I can't face everyone there while i'm this horribly fat. And i know this, but i still just eat and eat and eat, and i eat such junk, and i do no exercise. I hate myself so much for it, but i don't change.

But this time i will. Tomorrow I will not eat mountains of junk. Back to living within limits, not that I've ever really done tha

So... Massive binge on thursday. Today I got back on track though, I just ate a bit this morning, and that was within limits. Chances are I'll fuck up tomorrow too though. I'm going to a close friend's 18th, so chances are I'll exceed my calorie limits just with alcohol and mixers, not counting anything I eat. And since I'm not doing the drinking-without-eating thing again, I will have to eat something. And then once I'm drunk I'll probably eat even more. JOY!...

I am so so happy. I managed to balence out my overeating yesterday. One cup of tea, that's all I had today. Five calories of peppermint tea.

I couldn't have done it if I'd gone to college. Chances are I would have gone straight to the supermarket and bought junk food to go home and binge on. 

As it is, I am very very happy. It's been quite a while since I managed a day like this. I love it. All I need to do is keep it up. :D

Okay, I absolutely suck at exercise. It doesn't help that I hide any I do from mum, otherwise she does her whole "I hope you're not waging war on your body" thing. When did a bit of exercise become war?

Still, I can't blame her. There's plenty of time to exercise while she's asleep, plus anything I could do in my room. 

The truth is, I'm just lazy. Being on this site helps, but the workouts I do are ridiculously short and burn up

So... Going to college today on no sleep, probably a bad idea. Especially as one girl told me I'd put on weight. It's true, so it's hardly mean of her to mention it, but it wasn't what I needed to hear. Nearly had a bloody panic attack right in the middle of class when she said it.

On the plus side, I ate even less than I planned to today, so that's awesome. I love the feeling of knowing you are losing weight just by existing, burning up all those calori

If anyone gets the title, yes, it is a Garbage reference.

Anyway, I don't think it 2.0 anymore, probably gone past that now.

Food's been a problem with me for ages. It fucks with my head and I never seem to be able to eat normally. Pretty much, I can't decide if I hate food, or if I like it too much. That sums it all up. The last couple of months I've been binge eating really badly, and I'm sick of it. Time to get back in control. I already feel be