241.8 lbs...somehow along the way I have continued to gain and gain. I guess I haven't fully owned what I havve created and done to myself..how I don't eat right or excersise and expect my body to still be amazing. At this point I can't even stand to see myself with no clothes on and can hardly feel sexy or attractive for my boyfriend of 9 years who I know loves me regardless. I still want to be the best me I can be for myself. Well hopefully today is finally the first day of a plan I will actually stick with. I walked almost 2 miles this morning, had my smoothie and egg whites. I really have to dig deep and find some deep motivation to stay dedicated to this life. I typically lose about 20-25lbs..and get so proud of myself and then completely sabotage myself...what's the deal with that??!!
I recently found 2 pictures of myself from when I was 21 and at about 170 lbs..talk about inspiration!! I have these pictures on my night stand...i've never used this kind of motivation, hopefully I'm on the right track.
