weight loss mission

Ahhh...here we go, the first outing with girlfriends tonight.  I just keep telling myself over and over again that it will only be protein and salad..protein and salad.  I'll also have to say no to alcohol or only 1 drink.  I normally don't allow myself to go out for a couuple weeks until I am completely secure about how I am doing.  I'm not getting up with the chickens and walking almost 3 miles every morning for no reason.  

My mother also

I woke up with a killer headache this morning...but I still went on my walk! I left the house at 9am and walked 2.25 miles.  Guess what? When I got home my headache was gone, which made me feel much more motivated.  Once I got home I showered and then took out my smoothie blender and made my berry drink with green superfood powder, vanilla rice protien powder, stevia, almond milk, flax seed and chia seeds.  That drink makes me feel full of energy afterwards, then I'm doi

241.8 lbs...somehow along the way I have continued to gain and gain.  I guess I haven't fully owned what I havve created and done to myself..how I don't eat right or excersise and expect my body to still be amazing.  At this point I can't even stand to see myself with no clothes on and can hardly feel sexy or attractive for my boyfriend of 9 years who I know loves me regardless.  I still want to be the best me I can be for myself.  Well hopefully today is fi