I am going to do this!!

So today I get home from a long day out at work.. and I start to read my book.  It is 50 Shades of Grey book 3.. amazing, I know.  But then my mom comes in and tells me that I need to do something and then asks me if I am going to fit into my dress for my sisters wedding.  I know this may sound like I am putting blame on other people, but I lost 10 lbs since I was fitted for that dress.  I don't think it is all my fault here.. But yes I do realize that I could be do

So I weighed in today like I have been doing about once a month.  I consider my weigh in when I take all my measurements and my weight.  I weigh myself often. Because I am self concious about my weight.  I don't like my weight, and I have been telling myself that I need to lose weight for over a year now.  I have lost some.  Since I started this I have kept off 20 pounds.  But the problem is that I have lost 30,  but I keep gaining back thos